Wednesday, May 31, 2006

i feel so high suddenly... ahaha.. kays.. i am gonne dedicated a post to gwyneth for sticking with me through this time!!! it sort of goes like this....( *i changed her name)
i cant do confrontations so i kinda blocked alice*...(poena girl) yupp... and alice actually asked gwyneth if i blocked her or not.. and gwyneth being my ultra good friend, knew that i did ... and she kinda could not stand alice anymore cause she blames alice for this whole friend thing after listening to the both sides of the story.. cause she really says that alice was in the wrong and that she cant see the situation from alice's point of view... so she told alice that i did not block her... but alice found out through another friend that i did block her... so i dont really know if alice blames gwyneth for it or something.. and if she is really pissed at her .. and i feel really guilty for it...
i actually told gwyneth that i was really sorry and even offered to send an e mail to say that i told gwyneth to say that i did not block alice and everything and try to make alice less angry or hopefully not hate gwyneth... but gwyneth declined!!! she totally said that alice was in the wrong and she did not care whatever alice said about her or is feeling about her... and so for that... i so totally love you gwyneth!!!!
here i start:
thank you gwyneth... i positively love you and your clarinet and band... and i will TRY not to forget your birthday which is 5 days away... and grow taller gwyneth!!! ( : gwyneth is this really sarcastic girl whom i have been friend with since p1... and we were in the same church... until i changed church this year... she is really nice.. and funny... and supportive... and she is in band... and she loves pooh... she plays the clarinet with debbie... i am taller than her but younger than her... she has long hair... she ROCKS my world XD

yesturday.. i went to watch grease... front row.. it was so nice... sure.. loads of kissing was involved... but it was so nice!!! the songs were just so wowish and the dance moves were fantabulous!!! and SOME of the dresses was so nice... the girls were ABIT bitchy... ahaha... but it was just so nice... sort of like i stepped back in time or something... and the songs were all so cute... ahahaha... this is the best musical i have been to so far... after PCK musical... ( :

a little less depressing ending

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

haha... i cant say i really got over my depression yet....but if i am here posting it means i cant be feeling too bad can i???
anyway... i changed song!!! i am planning to change every few days or something... wow... i think i seem so free... oops... ahahah... no... i also got a lot of work to do... i shall type it out when i feel like it.. ahahah
kays... i must make it a point to put the lyrics here so everyone can sing along with me whenever i change song... i know i am so nice... ( :

I'm just a kid ~~~ Simple Plan [:

I woke up it was 7
Waited till 11
just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
and here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid,I know that its not fair
Nobody cares,cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me
Tonight...

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own and here it goes

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me?
don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't
fall asleep and every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid [repeat x5]

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world.

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid
tonight

it sounds so true... i am just a kid... i cant solve all my problems well... dont expect too much from me... though i am not THAT alone-ish....
YAYYY!!! i am going to watch GREESE later..... but i have CCA... 3.30 to 6.30.... and it starts at 8!!! so my dad told me that we had to leave the house by 7... how to rush home liddat??? aiyo...
but i am still so excite for it.... i think i have to go call nicolette now to brag about the fact that i am going to watch greese later... muahaha... i sound so evil... eeeek!!!... ahaha

sigh... still got CO later... sigh... this thursday i wont be going for CO!!! RAE too!!! so poor cheryl will be all alone.... with all that attention...i dont care if u dont believe me lor cheryl... HMPH... but today... all 3 of us will be together!!!! next tuesday rae will not be around... ahaha....

END :D

Sunday, May 28, 2006

looking back... maybe this will help if u really want to see the whole picture...
http://poena--.blogspot.com/
maybe that person out there does not know how much it really hurts...
perhaps it is really just what this friendship is meant to be...
broken up... like my heart that already is...
and thank you so much for those discriptive word about how you feel about me...
and please do not drag seconefaith into this....

picking up the pieces, piecing them back like a jigsaw, it might heal, but the scar remains, and it might take long...( i am not good at jigsaws)... but i promise myself that it WILL heal

someone just really broke my heart... into a few million pieces.... to the extent that i feel that it can never be fixed ever again...
the tears are there... but it refuses to drop....
ok... so what if i love seconefaith??? i seriously feel so pressured.... my friendship is at stake just cause i love my class... you know... i can seriously quote everything you said about my class in the convo that hurt me... cause i seriously remember every part of it... right... i asked your permishment to put the convo here and you said no... so i shall respect your view and not do it... but seriously...
'whatever it is, im entitled to have my own opinion about your class, but from now on, i wont mention shit about them in front of you, okay ?'
dont you find this hurting at all??? i only copied one sentance of what u said... so it does not count... and seconefaith is not stuck up and i know everyone here and they are nice... and love does not blind... sometimes, it just lets you see things from another point of view...

despondent. says:
so are we friends ?
i love denise; says:
yes
despondent. says:
im sorry. ( : ( i was thinking of how to react... thus the 10 min pause)
despondent. says:
[cue: say sorry too]
i love denise; says:
right
i love denise; says:
ok...
i love denise; says:
Heidi says sorry

seriously... i have no idea why i am saying sorry to you... but i did... now, we might seem like friends... we might still talk normally... but this issue has really caused something that would never heal... and even if it does, the scar remains... i am sorry to say this... but to that really special someone out there... i am not sure if i can really treat you the way i did last time... and i agree with you... i have changed... but you have too...

hate me all you want... it is not that i hate you... i am sorry... but i really do cherish this friendship... but i feel weird with it... and u can still mention all the ' shit' about my class in front of me... i hope we remain friends... but give me a reason why u think i was in the wrong too...

you may hate my class... but do remember that i will always be part of it...

a sad END

Friday, May 26, 2006

the lyrics to once upon a broken heart by the beu sisters...
sing along with me!!! hahaz

Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end

And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you,
now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine

Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I

Never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you,
now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
Iwoke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine

this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real'
Cause this is the way a broken heart heals

And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you,
now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a worldThat I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine

awwww... so nice right????

wow... new song... i LOVE it....
i just chanced upon it while listening to my CDs...
i cant believe i missed it out!!!
the starting might be a little boring... but i so love the chorus and the lyrics...
i mostly listen to songs due to lyrics... yupp...

ONCE UPON THIS BROKEN HEART OF MINE!!! : D

thank you cheryl for helping me with the music.... yayy!!!
you rock... and cheer up too
XR is just not worth it... ni3 yao4 dong3 de2 na3 de2 qi3, fang4 de2 xia4 !!!

a very happy ending!!! XD

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

right... thank you so so so much cheryl for making me waste my precious time doing your little quizzes... and to think i have 2 to work on... sigh.. i shall do one first then do the other when i feel like it... :)

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this.
1) Denise
2) Cheryl
3) Rae
4) Jasmin
5) Keat Ying
6) Shao Qi
7) Lynn
8) Sharon
9) PeiQi
10) Angela
11) Deborah
12) JingYi
13) Belinda
14) WanTon( wanting)
15) Chicken( ann tan)
16) Mrs shou kee ( sufang)
17) Tofu(shermi)
18) Rachel(byebye!)
19) Joanne
20) HuiQi
This list is not according to any order.( dizi people are on the top cause i am talking to 3 people from dizi now... it kinda makes me think about them... :) )
How did you meet #14?
classmate... good friend...
What would you do if you never met#1?
my life would half a big fat hole in it! :)
What would you do if #9 and #20 dated?
they dont even know each other... and they are both girls!!!
Do you ever like #19?
yupp..she is real nice... how can you not like a person who shang3yue4liang4s with you???
Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
they dont know each other...
Describe #3
super nice and funny at times... likes BALLOONS!!! and anime!!!
#8 is attractive?
i cant say no can i??? she is average lah...
tell me something about#7
errr.... she is going to japan during the june holidays
Do you know any of #12's family members?
omg... what a coincidence. ya... erm.. her older and younger bro her mom( especially one of them.. ahem.. belinda and jingyi... i swear if u say anything... u die)
What's #8's fav?
erm... i know she plays the piano!!!
What would you do if #18 confess that he/she likes you?
i will say," i like you too!" i mean like like.. not love like... she is after all going away and i will miss her...
What language does #15 speaks?
she dosent speak... she clucks... haha.. oops... she speaks english... d'uh
Who's #9 going out with?
how would i seriously know??? she is my senior for christs sake!!!
How old is #16?
young enough for her it to be illegal for her when she gets married...same age as me...
When was the last time you spoke to #13?
face to face...at the forum just now... cyberspace... half and hour ago on msn
Who is #2 fav singer/band?
some chinese band thingy...
Would you ever date #4?
no. no and no.... i am seriously vvvvvvv straight....not that she is not nice or anything
Would you ever date #7?
(look above)
#15 single?
no...with this boy from cat high... poor guy... he plays an instru from their band... haha( dont kill me!!!)
What is #10 last name?
Ho
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
what type of relationship??? she is my best friend.... if a love relationship...look 4 qns above....
School of #3?
SNGS... BLUE HOUSE ROCKS... sorry... just felt like being random and enthu....
Where does #6 lives?
this one i know!!! surprisingly cause cheryl has told me this for the hundredth time... somewhere near cheryl's house... which is in yishun... i think...
What's your fav thing about #5?
errrm... she's entertaining at times..( recalls handcuff incident)
Have you seen #1 naked?
omg... no way... seriously... and i hope i never will
CHOSEN 5 PEOPLE:
jingyi
shijie
hoshengai... priscilla
jasmine
GwynethTan
and if possible...
Deborah :)

finally i ended.. i took half and hour can.... ah... and there is still one more to go...


END

Monday, May 22, 2006

ok people.. as you all know... and can probably see... and tell...
i killed my blog... but my darling friend jing yi helped me re lived it... yupp
so i need to link all of you again...
all that hard work wasted...
so please tell me your blog adds again cause i have so many people to re link
thankie!!!

hey. i seriously think either you or someone else -gasp,horror,shock-- messed around with the template cos it like was completely deleted except for the title and some of the formattish things! ahh! nevermind! thanks to me, it's working and as usual, i saved the day :) !!!!!!!!!! (you should be glad that i saved your template in my com)
well, just in case you accidentally delete anything off your template, DON'T PANIC.
just hold down : ctrl + z (which is undo!) and all the things you deleted will magically reappear at their original positions and we'll live happily ever after.
oh and DO NOT forget, you must must must must must must must link me! whee! okay? okay! byebye!
lots of love,
jingyi
(oh and by the way i changed the "Preview User" thing -which was at the bottom left-hand corner of each post, above the 'time', to "Said the Fun-lover at:" because "preview user" is lame. you can change it to whatever you want. and the "!!!" behind the time can also be removed. i'm just overly enthu about time :) )

ahh!!! ok... there is seriously something very very wrong with my blog...
stupid template... where is jingyi?!!? she never comes online....
i so so so so so so need help... and the only people online now are people who dont even know what blogs are...
i am supposed to take loads of pictures with my cam tomorrow... if i manage to charge it in time... AND find the charger... i have tons of chargers... hmm.. ok.. i shall lis them outt...

for my nokia handphone=1
my mitsubishi handphone=1
my PS2... ( i also need to find this charger)=1
my camera=1
my camera printer= 1 ... wait.. this one i think still in the box... hmmm...
not to mention a few more dozen handfrees and wires to connect to computers and whatever..
hmm... so i own 4 chargers... not a lot actually... and a few other chargers from ex phones but i think i just chucked it at a side and they have rotted...
i just realised that i dont really look after my chargers and all that stuff well... i mean..
i seriously have no idea where my cam is since my mom usually uses hers...
i dont know where the charger is... cause i usually dont charge it...
i lost my PS2... and all the games along with it since my bro plays with it and i dont...
i have lost the charger cause i refuse to charge it...
i know where my handphone chargers are though!!! cause i never off my phone.. it is normally on 24 hours a day... except when i use one and the other one is off...yupp...
and i am seriously getting v v sian with school now... except that the thai show my girl was super nice... i have a feeling i am gonna cry tomorrow when i watch the ending... and dont u find them so cute... i think they are our age sommore... haha..
rae just told me on msn that i have gone bonkers... hmmm.. have i???
i dunno... just suddenly feel v high... ohyeah... and i need to do this time consuming thingy that cheryl ong made me do... to think i said i loved her... aiya.. no lah... i still lurve you Cheryl!!!

but i shall do that thingy later... first... i must do relay system or class.. next, must find cam and charger and charge... and make sure have memory...then i shall do the time consuming thingy.. sighsighsigh

so much to do so little time....

END

so yeah... and i am oh so v v v touched with your ... paragraph on me cheryl... haha... i did not really blame you or anything.. in fact.. i hardly did!!! i was blaming myself for making you cry... and my guilty consience is like.. so bad always and i get so stressed up i cry in class about it... so dun need to feel sad... and i have always believed that if you and a girl click, you click, dont force yourself to be her friend just cause you have to or want to...be yourself... seriously... bu2 yao4 mian2 qiang3 zi4 zi3... understand??? just be yourself and act normal... and you are seriously not that selfish compared to... ooops... anyways... you are just fine and i like you the way you are... remember??? i love you!!!! ~ gasps~ : ))

END... again...

Sunday, May 21, 2006

since 2 kind souls posted this on their blog... i have promised to do it back to them...
after all.... my eyes have stopped hurting!!! i should celebrate!!!
and i so wanna watch singpore idol later to laugh my head off... i love laughing after crying for so long....
but my friends managed to make me smile at school
ok... i shall start.... PS.... I AM VERY VERY STRAIGHT!!!

I LOVE CHERYL ONG!!! MUAXX
I LOVE GWYNETH TAN!!! AND I AM ADDICTED TO YOU TOO!!! HAHAZ...
I LOVE RAE NEO!!! I AM NICE TO PUT THIS... HAHA

LASTLY....

I LOVE SEC ONE FAITH!!!
I LOVE ALL FAITHIANS...
Faithians
Are
Inspiring
Talented
Hotties

i will finally miss Rachel Ho.... i love you too... i know you are going to Canada for dunno how long... but i will miss you... although we just spent like... half a year together... stay in touch kay...
yupp.. and i think i can make it to your BBQ this friday... how can i resist??? FREE FOOD!!!! no lah... i will invite my gang too...

END

Saturday, May 20, 2006

cheryl wants me to update...
and since i am so so so nice...
i shall...

yesturday, i went to watch this RJC play by RP ( raffles players) at RJC....
we got there like.. 45 min earlier and me and shermi got lost. can you imagine??? and the school is super big can... and the signs are so confusing an they have so many buildings, you have to walk for 10 min to get from one building to the other...
but we still managed to find it in the end!!! after getting lost for like, 20 mins...

and the play was super duper nice!!! i want to go RJC when i grow up!!! and last years head prefect was acting... the show is just so so so good...

DRAMA MY LIFE!!!!!

i suddenly sound so hyper again right??? i fufilled tofu's wish... i seriously wonder when my eyes will stop hurting...

and to that someone out there... i am eating already lah... dont need to ignore me... although i cant be bothered if u do... jkjk... i am really eating again!!!!

WHEE-NESS!!!~

(still sad)

END

Friday, May 19, 2006

falling into depression...

this post is supposed to be for my class... yup... dont worry about me too much.. i cried during recess cause i was feeling depressed... so dont need to think that i need to have councelling or something.. cause i am seriously fine...
some people said i turned quiet... do i really always talk that much??? oops...
dont need to worry about me kay... to those who knows what happened and those who do not...

and joanne... i will always be willing to shang3yue4liang4 with you again...
and huiqi, i am ok... dont need to worry that i am going crazy or whatever...

what is so wrong about crying anyway???

END

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Sunday, May 14, 2006

WHEE!!!! i am suddenly feeling v. hyper!!!
ok.. the june holidays are coming.. i know some people are not going anywhere.. some going on jap exchange programs.. some going to spain.. some going to malaysia.. some who cant be bothered and just wanna rot at home...
so...
i am filling up my holidays with performances!!! so fun right...

well... technically...only 2 of the performances i am going to are in the june hols, so me and my frends are looking out for more.. amazing right... i mean I NEED MORE PERFORMANCES TO WATCH!!! either that or we literally rot at home... except that i just realised i am going on a holiday except i dont know when...my mom and her eleventh hour preparations...tsktsk

oh yeah... this friday... i am supposed to go for this NE thing... which makes me feel stressed for some reason... i mean.. talking to people from the ministry.. dosent that stress you??? i dunno... it stresses ME!!!! i mean.. you say one thing wrong and they could blacklist your name forever and there goes your ideal junior college... i think i am getting paranoid again... sigh... yeah... and being put into the leaders grp does not help matters.. why must we be differently classified??? i mean.. all of us are leaders of tomorrow.. which means that all of us are leaders... which also means that all of us should be in the leaders group!!! i know i make sense!!! my pastoral head just 'likes' me so much she think i can talk about NE for 35 minutes... i thought NE was about singapore's history!!! until my friend told me the real meaning of NE of course... see how stupid i can get???

one last thing to say.....

Saturday, May 13, 2006

wow! new blog!
okay... i must start my thank you speech for the people who have helped me with my blog...
starting with... jing yi!!!!!
okays... thank you jing... you really helped me!!!
i mean with the skin and the tag board .... i love you!!!
if not for you.... my blog will not be here today!!! -sniff sniff-
i love you jing yi!!! - muack-
next... low ann!!!
ok.. she did not help me much... but i had problems with the linking and jing yi was not around so i asked her and she bothered to help me.
thank you low ann!!!
haha... and thank you denise
for being one of the first people to tag my blog... thanks senior!!! (:

end :D

testing 1, 2, 3 :)