Sunday, March 23, 2008

i should count the number of times i've had to hold my tears today.

and the pictures of tiffany's phones are damn sad.
i looked and sent it to my phone.
then i looked at it some more and ended up crying alot.

eeeek.
i hate this.

but out of my grey day today,
someone special made me smile by saying this
'if you're ever eaten up by the lions, I swear i'm going to kill his lover for making me lose mine'
i hope that someone special sees this!
out of all the tears,
at least i smiled once.

the night safari was boring. and dark.
i have this huge huge bite on my leg. and i have a feeling its by some big poisonous spider.
okay, so i was hoping it was poisonous.
but until now, it still bloody hurts):
and its HUGE.

i want to go back to the zoo.
i figured, if everything else fails, i'll work in the zoo.
i can do admin,
or sit around and play with baby seals.
and scold some kid for feeding the monkeys.
i can live with that(:

to keep the sad thoughts away,
i've decided to think happy thoughts!
not that its really working.
but yeah...

i honestly have never cried so much in my life.
and i'm scared to fall asleep.
because i'll get some nightmare.
and wake up.
and cry myself to sleep for two hours.
and before i know it,
i have to wake up.
with less than 5 hours worth of sleep.
and everytime the alarm rings,
i honestly dont know if i'm upset i havent gotten enough sleep,
or grateful that torture time is over.
guess i know where the eye bags are coming from.

i need sleeping pills
or something to keep my mind occupied.
before i sleep.
otherwise,
i'll just die very soon.

if you're ever eaten up by the lions, I swear i'm going to kill his lover for making me lose mine.

(:

Friday, March 21, 2008

ohwhee(:

i'm excited!
going night safari later(:
haha!

i hope i get eaten up by lions!

i think its weird but i keep getting images of me burning charcoal.
heh.

you know what that means!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

ohgosh.

i cant deny that i'm frustrated.

after one, another comes along.
what a day.

and its bloody obvious with the 'whaat' and 'walao'
check sent items maybe...

i think that sometimes,
i dont get enough effort.
and. its more than disappointing.
i mean, how much do i expect from you?

complains and complains.
complain.
since when did you hear my side of the story?

RAWR.
i'm not waiting alone every again.
key word, alone.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

i fall in love with sealions when they kiss me.

although they smell alot like rotton fish.

its amazing how last time when i had a blog, i didnt post much but now i'm suddeny getting urges to post alot. i'm bloody weird.

anyway, spiderwick is nice and scary.
and i want a griffin.
its pretty!

i cut my hair!
its shorter now!
not like anyone can tell! but whatever.

i went to the zoo today!
and i got kissed by a sea lion(:
i took tons of rubbish pictures!
and i visited ah meng's grave.
its quite small for a huge orangutan.
but i got all sad.
and i think pelican's are too fat.
i hope they topple and knock their heads.
whee. it was fun(:

then i went to buy orchids!
they are pretty!
and the uncle promised me that if i returned next time, he would teach me how to germinate a new species! by picking myself!
haha

i fed kangaroos.
and one climbed on me
and scratched me.
i am brave!
i didnt cry!

i'm going to get a bloody flu jab in april.
):

i want to be a zoo keeper!
and look after the nice nice animals.
like.
the seals.
or the monkeys.
or the polar bears.
or the elephants.
or i can drive those cool cars and give commentaries!

i was telling my mom that i dont mind working in tacopachi shops either.
it seems fun to cook tako balls.
flip flip flip.
so fun.
or work in the cinema.
can make popcorn(:
my mom thinks i'm mad.
i think i'm smart.
better than working in a shoe shop.

i think frogs are gross yet cute.
do i make sense?
not really.
its amazing how some people can draw frog cartoons until they're amazingly cute.
but in real life, these frogs look fat and weird.

i'm bloody screwed for homework.
ahwell.
since when was i not right?

i drank 5 cans of coke today(:

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

i've obviously got no life.

pounding. pounding. digging.
bang bang bang.
you're dead.
you're dead.
i'm dead.

lets give her hell.
lets give her nightmares.
lets. lets.
lets make her puke.
lets make her suffer.
i.
cant.
rest.

dripdripdrip.
drop.
pain.
squishsquishsquish.
squash.
aches.
splatsplatsplat.
splot.
blood.

brain hurts.
eyes hurt.
mind hurts.
pain. aches. blood.

my head hurts):

thats a pathetic attempt to write a poem with a pounding headache.
maybe i'm suffering from loser-never-get-into-CAP syndrome.
i'm stupid! i feel like writing poems!!

waitwait! joke!

me: 'whats the sequel to step up?'
xinyi: 'step up two?'
me: 'no! step down!'
-laugh-
xinyi: - runs away screaming for her mummy!-

i feel weird.

bang bang bang.
i'm dead

haha(: i'm posting again!

the eye is freaking scary):
i couldnt sleep last night! omg.
so i'm bloody sleepy now):

but tomorrow we have bbq!
i'm quite excited really, only i know i'll be dead tired.
since we have to run around and make sure everything's going smoothly.
ah. i'm quite worried.
early in the morning to amkhub to get food(: haha.
hopefully everything's okay.
and please please please god,
dont let it rain.
ohtien.

hmm.
hannah montana is addictive.
i want her album!

life's what you make it,
so lets make it rock.

waterhorse on friday!

i'm so screwed for hmwk.

Monday, March 10, 2008

dont ask me why i'm blogging again! not that anyone will read it! but ahhh. bish.

i'm drying my hair while typing!!!

ohohoh!

on friday, tiffany, pretty, chareine and i are going to mrsK's house to buy macs for breakfast!
haha. its going to be super duper fun!
then we can eat and crack brains over log together((:

its quite cool.
i know two people born on the same day!
sijia and bazil.
i think its cool.

omg. and pretty!
she cannot keep quiet one!
plus my pink penguin is completely molested by her.
its so gross!
i feel so sad.
okay, not really. but she cant stop teasing me lahhhhhh):
whee.

then on sunday, after tuition,
genevieve, tiffany, chariene, pretty, (hopefully) joannah and i are going to watch leap years together!
after tuition. haha.
and maybe eat dinner together.
its quite exciting!
since everyone's so enthusiastic about it and everything.

in fact, pretty wants a pool party too!
probably in june!
yay!
i'm so going to tickle pretty to death.

i kinda know pretty is spelt as prethi but pretty seems nicer. yes? yes(:

i'm hungry.
and still sick.

buy gooey gooey tape from tiffany!

wheee! i feel so smart(:
i managed to get my blogskin back again! by copying and pasting(:
yesyes, i love this bday present very much.

but i bet no one will come here to read anyway. everyone thinks it just emptyness.
ahwell. thats good isnt it? then i can rant rant rant. whee.

i'm going out with her later.
to get stuff from ntuc!
haha. i'm quite excited for the bbq okay! i hope the camp works out right.
after all the preparation. i'd just die if anything went wrong!

thats why, after going out with her,
i'm going back to school for dry run of the games!
haha(: so fun! tien(:

then i should be a good girl and come home to finish up my homework.

tomorrow, we're supposed to go watch the eye.
it took a long time to convince them.
and now.
its screewwwed.
and somehow, its making me pissed):
like wthell):

i dont want to go out anymore.
cause i know, when we go out together,
it'll just remind us of the quarrel.
then.
ahh.
it wont be so happy.

i know i'm being mean.
but i just hope.
that they pretend to not mind.
just for two hours.

cause.
this outing means kinda alot to me.

but no,
its not going to happen.

ahwell.

'you know you werent supposed to do that. then why did you? cause you want to right? why didnt you tell me? cause you were scared i would find out? i'm disappointed. '

'ohgeeee'

i dunno if i should just tell.
but.
wouldnt we all have happier lives.
if you didnt know?

8.37.

time to dry my hair.